Vivere EBook.

Vivere EBook.

Last updated: 8/2008

sical, mental,
emotional, and male sexual abusive childhood into drug and alcohol
addiction, AA recovery, and his search for Spiritual Truth. David shares
with the reader his innermost thoughts and feelings from his childhood
that resulted, unknown to him, in his soul-sickness. He then shares in
detail how his soul-sickness ambushed him into the horrors of drug
and alcohol addiction. He shares both his feelings and the strange
mental twists of the alcoholic mind. He shares, in graphic detail, how
his anger, frustration, terror, and depression, after many years,
resulted in Delirium Tremors, hallucinations, and eventually
detoxification. He shares the painful shattering of his denial system,
his withdrawal process, and his miraculous recovery in Alcoholics
Anonymous. He shares his thoughts and feelings as he proceeds
through the AA Program of Recovery. He then shares his thoughts and
feelings as he experiences he attempts to rebuild his life only to
experience one defeat after another because he cannot confront and
deal with the emotional hangovers from the male sexual abuse that he
suffered as a child. David reaches the brink of suicide before he can let
out his repressed emotions and he shares the painful experience that
is sexual male abuse recovery.
Preview
I was outside in the yard when I heard a voice in my mind screaming, "Go rape your daughter!"

Over and over I heard this and then I felt the most intense sexual feeling that I have ever had in
my life. I still had some sanity left, I told myself, because I knew that a beer would quite the voice.
I ran into the house and gulped down a beer. The voice started to quite down so I had another beer.
It was this incident that convinced me to take Louise' suggestion, that I see her family Doctor. I did
see her Doctor at his office in Quincy Massachusetts. I was shocked to learn that besides being
Louses' family Doctor, the physician was also the Chief Physician at the Quincy Detox. Well, after a
through exam, and a number of medical tests, the Doctor told me that, he thought he knew exactly
what was wrong with me, and that, he had a prescription that he knew would cure me. God, I was
excited, because here was someone who could cure the debilitating anxiety. I can remember him
sitting behind his desk as he wrote out the prescription and handed it to me.

When I read the prescription it said, "AA for one year".

I was angry, and asked the Doctor, "What kind of bullshit was this?"

He calmly told me that, "I believe that you are an alcoholic. I know that you do not believe that you
are, therefore to prove the point to yourself, if you are an alcoholic you will not be able to take this
prescription".

Incredible, I remember saying to myself that the Doctor wanted ...

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